Entry 28

sup y'all!

americans just had a fucking awful election szn this time around and now our fuhrer happens to be trump. again.

yikes.

but anyways, as someone who is completely disgruntled from the us govt in general it really is just another day for me. like who cares, we would've been screwed with either trump or kamala tbh so i'm just keepin it pushin and doing what i usually do anyways: SURVIVE!

i've also signed up for volunteering on saturdays :) i'm just trying to give back to the community a lil bit and get involved in community stuff for the most part, lord knows we're gonna need to in these uncertain times.

luckily, this election seemed to wake ppl up to the realities of life: our govt and crooked politicians are not going to save us. these "vote blue no matter who" libs needed a wake up call, and now they got one. i'm pleased to report that many ppl are waking up to one inevitable truth: el pueblo salva el pueblo. the village saves the village... not politicians, not ppl in power. they never have and they never will.

so ppl are talkin way more abt actual organized action now! hooray!

i can't wait to see ppl put their money where their mouth is and volunteer in their communities more often! i wanna see more young ppl attend town hall meetings, local elections being flooded with voters (after all, like 7 states enshrined abortion rights into their own state laws this election cycle rather than depending on the useless presidents we have to do it), join unions, and just like... fucking PARTICIPATE in community building.

bc 1. we're a lonely ass generation. ppl are sick and tired of their phones and soc media and are growing increasingly exasperated at these chronically online dramas and feuds. not to mention that being on social media for too long warps your thinking and behavior... ye.

and 2. we just canNOT leave this shit up to the old ppl. no offense gramps and gran, but y'all got us into this mess. now its up to us youngsters to undo the mess that several decades of shitty govt policies got us into. we have a LOT Of work to do, but i do believe in the people. i believe we can do it!!

so yeah the future is scary but... regardless, we move. hopefully we move together as a unit. a lot of ppl are disillusioned with the traditional hyperindividualist culture that's been cultivated in the us, so... i have faith. i think?

anyways, on a less depressing note, i've finally added a new page to this website! it's about damn time!

i've been working diligently on it for the past week and the final base pages are finished... well, ofc for now. there's always room for improvement after all, right?

so yeah i'm so excited to finally start adding entries to this shrine!! i know it looks super out of place on a super pink and cutesy website, but i love it anyhow. i think it still has that "me" touch to it LOL

and it's also about damn time that i finally do smthn about my frankly embarrassing levels of love i have for the horror genre. it's the oldest love of my life, a lifelong obsession with all things gruesome and taboo, and i couldn't stay away from shouting my love of horror for too long lmfao

it honestly shocks me that i didn't think to add that sort of page to my site, esp bc i would browse other neocities sites and see beautiful shrines everywhere. i guess it didn't hit me until this year, bc something is in the air this year that's had me visiting the theatres and sitting in front of the tv way more often.

tbh 2024 was a fucking fantastic year for horror. we've had the substance, frogman, longlegs, in a violent nature, exhuma, disappear completely, maxxxine, trap, oddity, late night with the devil, and a few others i know i'm forgetting that have released this year. geez louise, what is hollywood up to?

either way, as a horror fan i am LOVING it! horror has been having such a strong resurgence in general this past decade and it seems like the genre is still going strong. fuck yes, we are eating good! super happy abt that

so i'm just taking this energy and reflecting it back onto my own personal corner of the internet lol

it's strange, i've always loved horror but i've never had the thought to make my own personal shrine until now. well, better late than never esp since i was running into a brick wall on deciding what else to do with this site besides just general upkeep and small tweaks here and there. kinda glad i had this idea now bc i'm rediscovering the joy (and frustrations) of coding all over again.

which is great! it's keeping me busy after work and occupied during my boring no-spend periods when i'm not supposed to go outside... even tho i have been going out a little more than usual this autumn szn just to stave off The Depression that i feel looming over the horizon. i know it'll hit me eventually i'm just... trying to distract myself at the moment ^^;

but anyways, hunting down the graphics and stamps and blinkies i've seen around the internet and finally getting to use the cool halloween and horror graphics i'd see floating around the internet is giving me LIFE!

i love my pink kawaii aesthetic, but as anyone knows, even us pink bitches have a dark side lmfao and it's so refreshing for once to not feel like i have to be stuck in that particular niche all the time. i can't tell you guys the amount of times i'd see cool goth shit in stores or online and reach out for it like ariel in the little mermaid singing "part of your world"

i'd often joke to my friends and anyone around me that if i had a goth friend, i'd spoil them by buying the coolest damn stuff i'd see all the time just shopping around for my own pink alt stuff. til this day, i hope i bag me a goth friend just so i can surprise them with dark stuff i pick up every now and then. i just wanna live vicariously thru them LOL

but for now, i have my own lil dark corner in my site for my horrible and taboo interests >:3c

i can't wait to start building the base template for my entries all so that i can reuse it like i do with these blog entries!! yippee!!!

i hope that anyone who visits enjoys my reviews and rambles that i'm inevitably going to go into about each and every horror movie i've watched so far in life.

but man, just thinking abt it... very daunting. a very daunting task indeed, since i'm going to have to go thru p much every horror movie i can even remember, and i've been watching horror movies and reading horror material since i was a freakin toddler OOF

i am most def going to have to rewatch a lot of movies while i build that shrine. i have been this year anyways, like christine and the director's cut of halloween, both of which i hadn't watched in years. i also rewatched jeepers creepers but as i was compiling horror movies that i remembered on a google doc, i was coming up on dozens and dozens of movies, some that i only vaguely remembered the plot of. yikes.

turns out, this site is going to require me to do a lot more work offline than any other page i've constructed on this site LOL oops

but i'm not stressin. i love horror, and anything that gives me an excuse to rewatch movies i remembered loving as a kid is baller to me. idc either way, i'm very happy with the long list on my notes app that i have to get thru bc then it gives me smthn to do on my off days when i have nothing else to do!

so yeah guys, wish me luck and i hope everyone likes the final product whenever it may be sort of finished! i'm loving the way the shrine page looks in general, super proud of myself for re-figuring some coding stuff out that i hadn't done in a while. i think it looks pretty dope so far

i just need to continue working on the category landing pages, but i have a p solid base set so far if i do say so myself! so yeah

with all of that said and done, i hope anyone reading this has a fantastic holiday szn. those are coming up p fast, which is a bit nail-biting for me since i'm busy also buying presents for my family members. i know nothing abt what they like and what their general style is, so it's like a game of Guess every single time i enter a store. i think i'm p good with what i've got so far tho! fingers crossed they like it when i finally visit them

ok thx for reading byyyeeeeee